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Saturday, December 24
it's christmas eve. time now is 1548HRS, and i'm at home. will be leaving in 3 HRS for that christmas dinner at a relative's house, which i don't expect to enjoy myself at.

this year's holiday makes no sense to me, at all. the only time i really enjoyed myself during this hols was during the Dinner Cruise in Prague, on our last day there. i was truly happy. jubilant, if i may say so.

christmas 2005 proves no significance to me. i see my other friends enjoying myself at parties, gatherings, sleepovers etc. god knows how much i envy them. last year i thought christmas couldn't get any worse the next year. but look at me now..

i'll be off to KL tmrw morn. and i'll be attending mass at one of the churches there. dad asked just now if i would mind not going for midnight mass later. i said "doesnt make a difference, i won't know anyone even if we go for MN mass".

i don't think i'll ever enjoy any christmas celebration in future. i'm ashamed that i'm saying this, bcos i've a religion. and i'm supp to be joyous on this occassion. but i'm not. cos i'm alone.

Merry Christmas, everyone.

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