Sunday, July 16
So I guess it was all just an act of courtesy?
Just saying it for the sake of doing so?
You don't know, and probably never will, how much it has affected me.
How many nights I spent, brooding like a fool over what was said. Or, what wasn't.
How many times I gave in to my frustration, and took it out on my friends.
Or, how many times, when I heard my sms or ring tone, I'd wished it was from you.
But, of course, without fail, it never is.
OR, how many droplets were unwillingly released,
And how stupid that made me feel!
I've tried, and am still trying, soo hard to forget what happened.
But the harder I try, the harder it is to do so.
Sometimes I just wished I could just.. cast some spell,
And block off the memories that's giving me so much pain.
I'd forgotten about it before.
But you just had to slip in and reappear in my otherwise, peaceful life.
I couldn't blame you, of course.
I had a part to play.
If not for the circumstances then, you and I wouldn't even have met up.
And I would still be who I was before.
But in spite of all this, I still am aware,
That you don't know what's going on.
How could you, anyway?
I just have to wait patiently
For time to heal.
And bring me back, yet again, to the person I was.
Till then, I guess I'll just have to live with
The memory of you
The nicer ones.
The ones that bring a pretty smile to my face.
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