Sunday, July 15
nehneh. my computer is killing me. and my dad. so annoying lah.
first it was the bloody speakers, or the soundcard, whatever. i had to go to the extent of going over to Jeanette's today to borrow her bro's comp. had to do some voting for Temasek Sem vids. HURR.
and NOW, there's sth bloody wrong with the bloody internet connection. everytime someone calls in, or if we make a call WHILE using the internet, the connection is gone. and i have to sign in AGAIN, which will NOT be succesful till after many many tries. ): & this only started after we bought the new cordless phone. my poor papa is so frustrated. ystd he called the computer ppl, and they gave him a solution which included sth bout a microfilter in the phone. he changed it, but e problem's STILL here. whatthefish.
even if i get a laptop, it won't help if the internet is still screwed up lah. BLAH.
this caused me quite a lot of frustration & distress & unhappiness & moodiness & tears.
bit of exaggeration. but still.
anyway. i used to have a lot of opinions about.. certain things i see in public. but that's changed. cos i can.. understand now. like, why or why not.
thing is, those opinions still hold in my mind. so now i'm confused. heart, or mind? cos i remember making a promise to myself sometime back.
i think i give myself unnecessary problems to think about sometimes.
i doubt this makes any sense to anyone. i can't find anyone to talk to about this. it's way too.. private? and if i DID talk bout it i'd feel embarrassed. AH WHATEVER.
anyway, this song is nice lah. it would've applied to me a long time ago. haha. BUT some of it still applies to me now. (:
Baby, I don’t want to spend my life on trial
For something that I did not do
And maybe if you stopped and looked around some time
I wouldn’t pass right by you
Maybe it’s because you are so insecure
Maybe your pain don’t care
Maybe it’s the chase that really gets me off
I fall so when it’s just not there
Burn another bridge, break another heart
Try again, it will only fall apart
Infatuation
Not seeing the rest of you is getting the best of me
It’s such a shame that you shot me down
It would have been nice to be around
I’m touching your skin
If it’s only a fantasy, then why is it killing me?
I guess this must be
Infatuation
Infatuation - Maroon 5
I HAVE HORRIBLE CRAMPS TODAY. ROARRRRR! i can just drop dead now.
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