Sunday, August 5
life has not been too good for me recently. the most obvious being SCHOOL. and the rest, well.. if you know, you know.
caught simpson's with gv, calvin & sean (: laughed quite a bit. heh, took me away from the shits that were going on. but there was one part which kinda brought it all back for a while, that it seemed difficult to even break a smile at the funny parts. what a sucky feeling.
anyway, aft mass calvin gv and i were supposed to go study. but due to the great big CROWD of NDP-ers, time and space was not on our side. by e time we got back to esplanade library, it was 15mins before closing time. so took e mrt back, sat at eastpoint's starbucks abit, then sat by my condo pool and, as gv wld say, had a 'heart-to-heart' talk. :D
IT FELT SO SUPERCALIFRAGILISTICEXPIALIDOCIOUSLY GOOOOOOOOD!
we haven't had much of a chance to get together these days, cos everybody's sooo busy. we talked of our families, friends, gossiped (heh) and of course, reminisce bout first 3 mths.. the awkward/heartwarming/stupid funny moments. yeah, and we kinda found out stuff bout each other AND other people which was rather amusing/appalling/shocking/disappointing.. i even told them sth which i haven't really dared to speak of. probably cos i just didn't want to admit it. and givin that i rarely get to really talk bout what's going on in my head, today was quite big an achievement. (:
i wonder when we can ever have such quiet and heart-to-heart talks again. maybe one just before promos. to let all e steam out. HA. we'll see. (:
if i had to explicitly tell you every single thing i'm feeling just so i could get even a satisfactory response, then i really don't know how long i can take it. i don't like it when i have to turn to other people for whatever i need, just cos i can't get it from you. it makes me wonder if you really wanted me for me, or for.. other reasons. i can't bear to type it down cos i really dont want it to be true.
i guess my expectations were too high. or maybe you just weren't the person i thought you were.
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